Irritable

I've been super irritable the past few days. And I know that I'm irritable and that there's no basis for my anger, but I can't help it. And I just want to be able to have Scott hug me tight and tell me that it's okay and that he understands. He can tell me that now, but it's not the same without the hug. I need to hug him. I need to be able to cuddle up next to him and complain about being a woman. I need him to kiss me and tell me that I'm beautiful and that he loves me. I want to be able to cry on his shoulder when life gets tough. I hate this distance. I know that there are always problems and annoyances in non-long distance relationships, but I would much rather deal with them than this distance.

Wishing to comfort...

Today Scott went to the cemetery to see his mothers grave site. He came home feeling down and lonely. I could tell something was wrong pretty quickly. I don't know what it is about being in a close relationship with someone, but you just have an intuition about their emotions. I wish I could be there to hold his hand while he was there. And hold him close after so he doesn't feel so lonely. I wonder if he's thought about the fact that if he moves here, he won't be able to visit her anymore. He'll have to give so much up to move here...