He's gone.

We said goodbye today. I feel like I've been ripped apart. Being with him was amazing. More amazing than I could have imagined. I won't see him again until next summer. Right now I'm struggling a lot. I feel lost and so lonely. Once I start feeling a little better I'll do a re-cap of the trip.

Here's a picture.

He's on his way...

YEAH!!! He waiting to board his plane from England! And it's about damn time. We've been waiting for this for so long. My emotions are in over drive. I don't know if I should laugh or cry or throw up. I'm all packed and ready to go. I'll be waking up at about 3:45 AM *gag* for work. And then straight after work I'll go to the airport, where he'll be waiting. :) I should describe more about how I'm feeling and such, but I'm so overwhelmed. I think I'll leave it at that for now. I'll be sure to report how the trip went though.

Wish me luck!

Less than a week... 6 days!

We're in the final countdown. We'll be together in 6 days. I have a "calm before the storm" thing going on right now. It all feels really surreal. I'll be packing in a few days. And then it'll be time to go. We met a year ago as of yesterday, the 7th. I can't believe how much time has passed. I can't believe how far we've come. I just want to hold him. I hope this week goes quickly.

Feeling a little sad...

Things are still amazing and I'm still extraordinarily excited for out trip (which is 11 days away :D ) but I had a little break down today. Skype had been giving us a lot of troubles the past few days and communication has been tough. This morning it wasn't working again and I broke down. I hate the distance. I hate that there is seemingly no end in sight. I hate that we have to rely on something so thoroughly unreliable for communication. I know that I'll be seeing him very soon, but then we have to say goodbye. And then we'll be back to this, and it will be worse because now we'll know what we're missing. I just want to be with him.

Sorry for the sad/hateful post. I really am happy and I am really really excited for our trip. It's just been one of those mornings and I needed to rant about it for a moment.

Two weeks!!

Only two more weeks until we meet for the first time!! Everything is ready to go. He's getting money changed over into dollars this week. I can't believe it's only two weeks away. Two weekends. I can't wait to lay on his chest and hear his voice resonating inside, his arms wrapped around me, his lips pressed against my forehead. Only two more weeks. :)

25 days.

25 days. I can't believe I'm meeting him in 25 days. I don't think I'll believe this is real until I get to the airport. I'm so excited and so nervous.

I just can't wait to finally know what it feels like to be wrapped in his arms, to feel his breath on my neck, to feel him between the palms of my hands. Real, tangible, alive. I can't wait to be able to say good morning without touching my computer. I can't wait to share our first hug, first kiss, the first time we look into each others eyes with nothing to say, the first "I love you" whispered into an ear, the first night next to each other, the first picture together, and, yes, even the first goodbye.

We'll part from each other with memories and an idea of what life will be like when we're finally together. We'll part knowing every contour and expressioin of the others face, we'll know the texture of the others hand and how it fits with our own, we'll know the heat of the others lips and the feel of our bodies next to each other. We'll part knowing what life with the other is like, instead of just the view from the other end of a webcam.

The last stretch

In one month it will be the 14th of November. The day before I meet him. Everything is booked. All that's left to do is countdown. I'm getting really excited and really nervous. The anticipation is exciting... but it's been so prolonged... I just want to meet him. We've been planning this since 5 months ago. We started the countdown at 160 days. And now we're at 32. The days are moving quickly now. I'm excited! I can't wait to finally be in his arms!